Separation was destined in 2 days and 13th May 2010 it was. It had been months ignoring the known separation; yet trying to be positive for the
miracle as people say it could change fate.
As I entered the ICU chamber in hospital, I didn't dare
to look at other patients. I went straight to her bed and looked at her eyes. There
was smile in both of our faces as if saying (and accepting) good bye. Her eyes were moist, tender
and blank visualizing the unknown yet trying to be in the present. That moment of
silence was very satisfying. Presence speaks more than words and I realized it
that moment.
It was going to be the last moment in both of our lives
that she would recognize me and talk to me. I had brought her some water in a
bottle hiding from doctors because they wouldn't let her drink anything from past
many days. I had her drink it slowly from bottle’s cap helping with my hands. My
heart exploded with gratitude when I saw contentment in her eyes. I don’t know
if she drunk anything after that day. That feeling still resides in my heart
and I wish I never forget it.
I told her that she would be alright very soon but she knew I was
lying and she smiled. She explained, there are few events destined in life
and nobody can change it, not even God. Dashrath would never have died if
everything was in Ram’s control. I was so amazed looking at the wisdom she
carried even at her death-bed. She tried to press my hand by her weak palm to feel
it and asked me to take care of myself and the family; especially for my father
as I am the eldest son. She had always been my pillar and I was stunned and
grounded that moment. I consider myself fortunate to hug her, kiss her forehead
and saying the words, "you are best mom in the world".
There was a moment of silence after which she looked
outside of window and said "it is so sunny and beautiful outside". She was in
hospital for almost 3 months and hadn't seen outside from a long time. Her eyes
conveyed to me she was yearning to go outside and feel the warmth of sun on her
face and thank nature for the little things. I silently looked outside and it
was indeed beautiful out there. I could hardly imagine what that sunlight would mean to someone who is about to die next day. I was silent and my heart could only say: Thank
you.
I wish God give us all a last chance to feel the joy of small little things nature has provided us and to be able to say thank-you to everyone & everything before we depart
from this world.
A humble "Thank You" from deepest corner of my heart!
